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[21 Oct 2009|09:46pm] |
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priorities change with time. it's inevitable. im gonna change a laptop very soon. mine's annoying the daylights outta me especially during the period of doing the bloody applications. so glad the week is over. during the week i earned myself a few quarrels, some unresolved til now, alot more pimples, a darker shade of dark rings(i wonder how it can be blacker than black) but alot more time with the family. suddenly staying home on friday nights don't seem so bad after all. having no activities planned don't seem so boring and lifeless after all. suddenly...going to hk with the family and missing christmas in singapore aint that horrid after all. haha i think it's partly attributable to the hk show i'm hooked onto. i can't stop watching! my roomie told me to just stop studying, chiong finish all FORTY EPISODES and then focus on studying after that. haha that was after she saw my attempt to study this afternoon: studied 1 and a half hrs, took a break and watched two episodes, studied for another hr, watched another half episode. haha i'm glad thursday is coming and i can look forward to the weekend again. and i'm finally meeting the DCP for dinner after eons and much procrastination. and i'm thankful for the roomie, and jojo, yet again. school sucks without them. and the bestie just predicted i'm appearing offline on msn, and she's RIGHT! hahaha im off! (:
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[13 Oct 2009|10:12pm] |
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i'm listening to 世界末日now, my favourite jay chou/chinese song of all times. so if you know what it means.....yes, i'm very stressed now.
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| in the midst of it all |
[07 Oct 2009|12:33pm] |
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i sense a lack of colours and pictures here, so yes i'm trying to upload my pics from the memory card NOW. haha in case you don't already know, cause i've been excitedly telling people how cute pierre png is in real life, i went for saturday night's f1 rock concert - the beyonce and black eyed peas one. i was sooooooooooo close to skipping it but i reckoned a night out would be good. and yea i saw pierre png, and was never a fan of his until that night! he reaaalllllyyyy honestly looked darn charismatic. so at the end of this post i will try to get some of the pics up! the jiggly fats are annoying the daylights outta me, so i'm bent on doing smth about it. but i hate running and i don't fancy the idea of gyming cause i always feel and look like a noob there, any other suggestions anyone? and for the record, i've been thinking and looking out for jobs i want to apply, just that i really abhor the reality that next year, this time, i'm gonna be a full-time adult, bitching about work and office politics. urgghhhh. not to mention how, in recent days, my mom has been kinda paranoid that i'm single. now don't ask me why, cause the elder bro, at the age of 26, with no stable income, is much more single than i am. hmmmmms.  
( f1 ROCK concert )( f1 ROCK concert )( f1 ROCK concert )
okie i'm off to class! (:
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[06 Sep 2009|03:21pm] |
you know how humans like to complain and whine and make alot of noises EXCEPT for appreciation about something, and when that thing passes, all the complains and grudges seem insignificant? dnd's finally over (: ): good and bad because now i finally have more time for my family and loved ones, but it means it's back to reality that school's in, and the comm's duties are officially over. it's funny how i can't use words to explain how i feel about everyone in the comm now, cause you don't miss the water until the well runs dry, and each member is special to me in a way or two. and at this point i'm really lost for words. it's ironic, but i'm gonna try to maintain the friendships with these people from now on. maybe hilda was right about building r/s, albeit just working r/s with the people in the comm. it's vital for the comm to work well tgt, and at the end of it all, it may seem more precious than i ever thought it was. i can't say how immensely proud of ourselves i am, of all the hard work and sweat and tears, literally. so to more friendships and lovely people and to a very successful dnd, (((:
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| down to zero, be a hero! |
[19 Aug 2009|02:32pm] |
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haha okie i know my title is really corny but that's the first thing which popped into my brain. school's in and slacking's out. no more late-night outs and spending the whole day shopping or bumming around watching the teevee at home. i'm kidding myself actually, cause the late-night-outs still apply and im still watching shows over the com. haha but i must say, i love my roomie! haha it makes a difference really, cause it's always nice to know that in the 2ish 3ish timing when everyone's getting ready to go to bed, we can still rant to each other about everything. despite the sarcastic remarks and nonsense we throw at each other everyday, at least it kinda gets me settled it. (p.s: i realised at this point in time, that my thoughts are disorientated and hence my sentences don't flow. hahahahhaa) away with school, i think i've changed a bit. not in my values, not in my faith, but more in my perception and opinions of matters. i guess it's both good and bad? some people may think i'm just influenced by the people around in uni and their way of life, so much so that i have to tune myself to their frequency to fit in. trust me, i don't bother if they're not worth the effort. it's the little things like how i change the way i speak to fit into hall culture, cause i guess it's really uncomfortable to converse in chinese to me and have me answering in english. then there's the whole drinking issue, which my parents have been really paranoid over. haha im not an alcoholic, but life's too stressful to restrict yourself so much that sometimes, you gotta let loose. it's like how i see wendy let down her hair during joint hall bash and even though she ended up puking and all those stuff, she still had a great time. and i see how i handled arguments and conflicts in the past, as compared to now. i became more stubborn, more straightforward, more daring, more outspoken in any way. haha zznc, think back the sec school PL days! with every quarrel there came a bucket of tears from me. i couldnt express my thoughts and didnt dare to. okie la i was a wimp. haha uni came and i think jojo and i both realised that, one of the survival essentials in uni is that you can't let people step over your head. you gotta voice your opinions and make your stand. maybe along the way i offended people...but ohwell you can't please everyone around you. and then you realise, there are people who just hate you, and when they speak of you and word gets passed around, the stories just get distorted in the most absurd manner ever. it's ridiculous but if things like these gets to you and pulls you down, it's totally not worth it. hilda says i'm the kind who wants to hear the opinions of people who matter to me, but ultimately i'll still make my own decision. i think in the past i wasn't like that. i don't know when did i change this part of me. but hey, bestie! i still love you, for understanding and not forcing your opinions on me, for respecting me no matter what i do. for not judging, because you know that's one of the things we both abhor. and for just being there, even though you know i might snap and grumble and whine (: THANKS!
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| and we all lost that innocence, somewhere, somehow |
[14 Jul 2009|02:27pm] |
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JOLENE HUAANNNNGGGGSSSS can you hurry tell me what you wanna ask me plsplspls! haha you know i've been trying to think what it could possibly be cause you FRIGGIN' LOGGED INTO FB, a big WOW for you/ so hurrytellmeeeeeeeeeee! and i hope you're having a fabulousssss time but pls update even after you reach milan and london wokayyys. (: and as you can see, pms really brings me on a rollercoaster ride. one minute i'm happy, depressed the next. i didn't leave the office for lunch today and chewed gently on pao cause my wisdom tooth, nono teeth, are killing me slowly. but secretly if i can shed off a few kilos i promise i won't complain ((: someone told me about how we lose our innocence as we grow older. how true... i reckon, as negative as it sounds, it's an inevitable process that reaches you at some point of your life; cause when your eyes blink open to the world filled, maybe not entirely, with lies, deception and selfishness, you gotta grow up right? and then where lies the line that draws the loss of innocence and skeptism and nonchalance? i know, at the very least, i don't want to be aloof and nonchalent to everything because sometimes those things which leads to a jaw-dropping effect just cannot be regarded lightly. it's just learning to see, hear and perceive things with a pinch of salt. oh, i told lewis earlier on, my phone battery is dying on me at this current moment, and i think it's God's way of telling me to isolate myself from the world for a while. you know, have a little time for myself, walk a bit, think a bit, shop a bit(HAHA), be silent for a bit. (: yes i think i'll do that. back to the point about how pms brings me on a rollercoaster ride, can you see why now? haha linghui: iloveyou! (: hilda: HELLO YOU! you didnt tell me you talked to lionel in exxon! haha i completely forgot he was working there too la!
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| im verrrrrrrrryyyyyyyyyyyyyyyy tired! |
[10 Jul 2009|09:25am] |
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yea i don't know why im so tired. i've been sleeping almost at the same timings every night, or even earlier (in my standards) but i just wake up feeling my eyebags swelling up and my eyes' diameter shrinking. urgh. and then i succumb to the sin of drinking coffee in the morning at work just to keep myself awake enough to do my stuff. and then drinking coffee is bad for health and stains teeth and it gives me weird tummy aches. and then the cycle repeats cause im constantly finding for shows to watch when im back home instead of sleeping half anhr earlier. okie i'm whiny. haha it's my last week at work and you know how it sucks when i just started having more casual conversations with the people sitting around me. last time at citibank, i had 5 months to know everyone, even people not from my floor/dept. i think maybe it's an enitrely different environment and working culture, hence the stark difference in environment. although i did really mundane stuff like typing letters and sorting out forms at citibank, i actually liked it there. the boss was friendly and approachable (he used to call me into his office just to talk about his trekking trips and AC. yea he's an acsian!), the aunties treated me like im their daughter and bought me food and shared gossips with me. the late-20s people made my OT hours so much more interesting with their nonsense and exciting lifestyle. haha i recall this pretty girl who had something like a short bob hairstyle but the colour of her hair changes almost monthly - think PINK PURPLE BLUE BLOND RED. and now that i feel like dying this ash/copper/golden brown colour, i feel boring. haha okie i think im really bored with work, i have no idea why i typed so much about citibank. anyway side note. jarls!! pls dont go clubbing alone with the french guys k! i fear for you! haha and i have this whole weekend packed because i've been going home on wed and thurs doing nothing but lying in bed with the laptop. i completely got wendee's bday party date mixed up. it's THIS sunday and i thought it was NEXT. and then my small bro's bday is coming. and gen&daryl are leaving next sat, nbs pre-camp meeting next sat, sweedy's party next sat. ohhhh great. ytd i was talking to jojo about MJ's memorial service, about how much we cried and bawled our eyes out especially when Paris took over the mike. it kinda dawned upon you that, hey, as much as he's a MEGA-star (im not even using super cause it's an understatement) and he earns/spends billions and many fans would die to meet him, he's still human after all. he's still a normal dad who loves his children, maybe in ways the world cannot witness, hence all the rumours and accusation. and wendee told me her tears fell uncontrollably and i reckon, the last yr of my uni life is going to be alright after all. cause i won't feel like a freak watching shows and crying to myself in the room since wendee/roomie-to-be is like that too. hahahahahaha in fact i think it'll be great! (: OKIE SOMEONE JUST SAW ME BLOGGING. CRAP.
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[06 Jul 2009|11:09am] |
alright alright i know im blogging from the office again. but i just read this: http://www.straitstimes.com/Breaking%2BNews/Lifestyle/Story/STIStory_399012.html it kinda tugged some strings in my heart, cause we do realise at the end of the day, he's human after all. and whatever it is, maybe we're in no position to judge whether or not he has fulfilled his role as a good father, because, what is a good father? how do we quantify and measure? maybe he really did try his best, in ways the media twisted and turned to something juicy that would entice readers. what a skeptical world. and here i sit, with a coffee-stained empty cup, replying gen's email, debating whether to open my box of jellybeans. haha i think i've taken a liking to assuming the job of a sloth recently. yesterday, i had an afternoon nap that lasted a grand total of about 3hrs after coming back from post-church lunch, before coming to my senses and driving down to tpy for more koi. haha i think i've made the girls hooked on to reading a certain someone's blog...well it's not really my fualt. her blog must be interesting enough for us to be engrossed in righhhttt?? so in comparison, i think my blog is dull and boring, but it's okie, i like it this way (: oh, i've been re-watching some old shows over the weekend. tried to load american pie BUT IT TAKES A TRILLION YEARS. and some old clips enough to absorb me so much that i forget my meals. haha that's how bored i am. and i promise to upload pictures of linghui's and jarl's bday celebration soon! i'm not gonna be another jolene huang. hahahaha (:
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| it's been about a year now |
[29 Jun 2009|11:15am] |
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im at work now, and blogging. Disclaimer: By right i'm not really slacking because i have nothing to do and nobody's giving me work to do. I mean i have work on my hand, but it's pending and kiv-ing and i cannto continue until the client gets back to us. haha so i'm just trying to occupy myself so time will pass faster. i'm glad im meeting the girls tonight - hilda shan bel. although i'm honestly VERY tired and would like to plop myself onto my bed right after work, but i reckon some girl-talk will do me good (: nothing wrong with hanging out with zhong and gang, but i do need to neutralise the boys' company with girls' company sometimes. i hate to see my friends fretting and troubled. over boys especially. Maybe if girls think and feel less, we wouldn't be so miserable. but then again if we dont put enough thoughts and heart into thinking, i'm not sure whether we'll really be certain of what we want. hence my stand on wanting to start off at ground zero. i'm really happy to see people pairing off and finding their other halves, and excited for those who are about to be paired off. you all know who YOU are! haha so for now, that's good enough for me. (: last night's dinner was fantastic, food and even better, the company. haha pam you're REALLY hilarious la. can't find another girl like you seriously. i'll load the photos soon k! LENE AND CHRISTINE, YOU ALL ARE MISSED! and so my this week is packed again...before school starts i guess i should make full use of my time. wed's zznc day, thurs with slut, fri is transformers with linghui and zhong, sat is hall camp (lewis lin pls acompany me thanks! haha) and sun's church. tmr's my only free night and i think i shall go and run because three separate individuals have told me i've gained some weight. urrghhh! oh yes i reserve the last 2-3 hrs of my night before sleeping to talk to my parents/siblings. it's freaking funny how my elder bro has swapped rooms with my parents, and every night for the past 2 nights has been some X BOX party or private michael jackson tribute (yesss we all like michael and are mourning). and discussions about painting liverpool logos on the walls / fixing shelves to put trophies and painting out tables to a standard colour makes me love my family even more! (: i'm trying to restore some friendships i felt i neglected during this semester. pardon me for that, i don't think i've been such a good friend as i could have been. i tend to have high&low times in a friendship except for some...a few of which were so low that it's a little tough to start talking again. but heck, i pluck up my courage and i know it's gonna be worth it cause friends are gonna last longer than lovers, lovers who may turn into strangers in the blink of an eye.
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| coldest story ever told |
[24 Jun 2009|08:23am] |
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haha okie one of my tax directors just walked past my table and gave me this raise-eyebrows look. haha she's quite funny, the way she preach and all. but i think i'll die of stress if i were under her! anyhow, i want to shout out a THANKKKSSSSSS to the people who endured and understood my rants and whines and whatnots. zhong, for all the traumas i gave you HAHA you deserve an award for it la. and to the girls and those who understands and chant with me "boys suck, throw rocks at them!", i lovelove you all that i think i might turn lesbian. haha okie i'm kidding! and to the fellow colleague gao likuilin who tries to make me laugh everyday by giving me WEIRD SURPRISES, thankyouverymuch! it's not such a bad experience after all. dont worry man i didnt bawl my eyes out or cried til my eyes were dry. haha not worth it i would say. so yea okieeeeee i get the point linghui jojo and zhong! (: pls control me k! ohyes we met up ytd and talked at our normal voices at starbucks which zhong claimed was SUPER loud. ahahah i think it's just like that when three excited girls get tgt with one irritating guy who says the shittiest but funniest stuff ever. gosshh miss you people like crazy. it's been so long since we all got tgt and laughed ourselves silly! SATURDAY OKIE (: alright back to work! (:
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| pink and purple nails |
[31 May 2009|02:22pm] |
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yea i've pink and purple nails now. i wanted to be adventurous! haha anyway i decided that this post is gonna be a shoutout post to the loved ones and a reminder to myself, AGAIN, to upload the hundreds of japan photos. and i think i need a new phone and laptop very badly. okie phone first, cause for the past 1 hr or so, zhong has been trying to send me this 3-SMSES-LONG sms and it just wont get thru to my side! so he kinda wasted 1 buck on it. and the fact that my phone has been running out of battery so quickly has been annoying quite a few people, heh sorry!
HILDA: now that you're so free please come and meet me for lunch! and mambo soon! TIFF: i'm seeing you real soon haha and this is pre-out-of-this-world-cocktail party. cant believe you actually listened to my suggestion and decided on this theme la! PEA: pecks on the cheeks! (((: QUEEEKKKERRS: i promise i'll visit you more at hall 3 next sem! haha you can learn the guitar with me, i play for you, you sing "Not a girl, not yet a woman"!! (: LENE: hello woman! your driving license is still with me! meet up soon! (: SISTA: i did my nails w/o you again! haha meet up before you go japan k! that's if you get to go........and apply for hall 2! haha GEN: we need to sign up for dance classes SOON. i need to sweat out some of my fats before they clog up my face til i cant open my eyes! LINGHUI: gosh miss you to bits. can't wait for you to get back! then we can meet up and go kbox or smth and sing our hearts away (:
okie that's about it. i had a good meetup with toon that day and i realised that i havent been talking to him for the longest time. it's funny how hilda keeps saying toon's really quite nice and how i used to hurl abuses at him all the time. lol. oh and i'm not that broke anymore. thank God!
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| things you THINK you know |
[24 May 2009|01:25pm] |
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you know how you may think to yourself from time to time that yea, i understand this person, i've known him/her for more than 2years or so! and then one day an event or news shakes you, and you realised, there's so much more to that person that you've ever known? ah yes. i'm feeling that now. i used to think i was quiteeeee good at comprehending people and the way they think, i guess i overestimated myself. it's queer, how i'm still a little affected, and i really cant explain why. i can't judge, and i won't, cause humans are selfish and have unlimited wants, just like what we used to leanr in econs about consumers and their spendings. it's essentially the same thing i guess. i'm still a little bewildered when i woke up this morning. but yea, give me a few days...ALRIGHT i need to meet up with the girls soon - zznc meangirls jojo(and linghui hurry come bacckkk!) sista. and the worst of it all? stupid zhong says i've to keep it to myself. URRGHHH. alright off to meet wendy&jan!
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| for all the love there is on earth |
[17 May 2009|06:08pm] |
PAM-tastic ARTAS party is over. PMS alert is beeping cause lene and i were emo nemos ytd. it's high time i controlled those tear glands. haha it's not even my party and yet everything seemed like a wake up call. to remember to treasure, to appreciate, to love and be loved. pam was beautiful, like what my mom said when she saw the photos from her party. haha pam darling, she used the words 很美啊！
 
and we had our first successful impulsive visit (: which kinda left me with lethargy and absence from church today.
anyhow, enjoy phuket tiff pea and shan! meet up when you all are back! (:
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[29 Apr 2009|08:15pm] |
absolutely abhor liars.
damn you.
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| i cannot stop hiccup-ing. |
[16 Apr 2009|01:23am] |
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haha lene and auds, my friend was browsing through my phone photos today and i saw the photos you all took at lido the other time we were SUPPOSED TO go for Ready Set Glo. hahaha what happened to those 5-hour-talks?!??? HELLO GIRLS, PLEASE MEET UP AFTER EXAMS. i wanna see pam's boyf veryveryveryveryvery badly. hahahaha (: i'm in a dress-mood. all thanks to gennnnnnnnn. but then again, my wadrobe is spilling. i think i need to clear some clothes out, but i need to plana strategic day to do it, ie. when my mom is not around to see so that she won't start on the topic of stop-buying-clothes-just-cause-they're-on-sale-but-you-don't-even-wear-them-more-than-once. the topic never seems to end, trust me. oh but i have to vacate my room by 24th, so that means i have to clear some space for the clothes in hall. CRAP. plus i need to get a full business suit before PA begins. DOUBLE CRAP. alright, i can't stop hiccuping. and time to study francaise. bonne nuit!
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| we all are young once, and once only |
[07 Apr 2009|11:40am] |
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i'm supposed to be sleeping now and jump out of bed 2hrs later to mugggggggg c.Law all the way but i'm a bit restless now. haha good enough reason to blog? part and parcel of growing up is to learn how to be more accepting, of people, of things, of the sad facts of life, of life. sometimes i don't know whether we take the easy route and conclude everything with a "life's like that" or "oh, that's life for you" just because we don't think anything we do will change what we think is going to happen. maybe if we all tried a little harder, it'll eliminate half the regrets we've ever had in our lives. but then again, there's no return. i guess it's how you wanna look at it; as a learning experience, or as an unlucky event that found its way to you, brushing aside whatever the possibility that it might once again happen to you again. i realised that in uni, you really meet people of all kinds, all shapes and all sizes. okie, it's not that i didn't know that right from the beginning of semester 1. it's just that as you move along the paths and winding roads, it kinda hits you that the world isnt filled with people that you associate with. those 90% of the population wom you do not know or have never came across, they probably don't think characters of your kind or mine, for that matter, exist.    
 
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| MARKETING-ING |
[29 Mar 2009|09:31pm] |
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im doing the bloody 20-page marketing report now and i'm almost dying, but im only at page 11. OMGOSH SAVE ME. kwee and gennnnnnnnn are in front of me listening to a nice canto song and trying to do tax at the same time. i know when gen reads this she's just going to leave a comment. hahahhahaa. slut (aka daryl) just came back from the toilet and okieeeeee, gen and kwee are just weird. they're whispering dunnowhat to each other. haha (((:
oh on a random and bright note, saw shann just now after what seemed like very long. OH YES. LINGHUI!!! im wearing your slippers and your bangles nowwwww (: love it! okie i think i shall upload SOME jap photos when im free! bye!
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| just dance |
[09 Feb 2009|02:25pm] |
listening to lady gaga's song now, sista got me addicted, haha i looked like a freaking pufferfish who got bee-stung on the eyelids this morning. haha i woke up with a sniffy nose and my hp under my pillow, yes i woke up late. i dont even know why im blogging now with slut reading as i type. haha yes after a while i went to salvage my face. IM SHALLOW LA. haha okie uselss post bye!
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| BE RIGHT BACK! (: |
[24 Jan 2009|02:26am] |
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off to the land of smiles for 4days! (: hope the land of smiles will stay that way and not come up with any funny protests or whatevernot. so please pray for me and my family (: gonna bask in the lovely company of sista and family and tomyams and goosemeat, so don't miss me too much til then! (((: xoxo to zznc! (NOTICE THE EXCLAMATION MARK SHAN!) and meanies and pokes!(omgosh what a weird grp name!) missing you all already!
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